September 19, 2009

Confessions....

I dunno why, but i felt a strong emotion within my heart that i couldnt break through. I just had to pen this piece down the moment it striked me.

You see, most of you'll have seen me with those oodles of flab and a little of muscle. And most of you'll wouldnt dare pick up a fight with me for more reasons than one. You'll think im too powerful, that I'll tear you apart, You think i can break your bones with only a lone finger....etc., etc.

The truth is...........I'm not how you see me. I do not know if you can believe it or not, but till today, I havent got into a fight with anyone. Instead of me kicking some ass, most of the times, my ass was kicked.....Very hard. I'm not that mean and ugly bouncer you know........Believe me, I am so timid, you could probably pick up a fight with me, win and drag me all over the place.

I know this post might seem pointless to most of you'll, but seriously, there's a lot more to Brian than you could ever guess. For starters, I've never had a Best Friend. I hopefully am in the process of making one in college, but am still not pretty sure. Secondly, I cry like a baby.......the slightest of feelings towards something i like are depicted with tears. Big drops of saline. (For most of you'll, the image formed in your mind right NOW might be very laughter-causing). Third, I have had a very bad tryst with academics in School. I had a re-exam in the 8th, I had to answer a third set of prelims for being able to answer the boards, and i failed in my first and 2nd terms in 12th too.

I know i might sound very very cranky right now, but i thought you'll should get a dose of the real me, instead of the fake me- someone who's joyous and doesnt give a damn about anything.

And yah, just for the record, I've never dated ANYONE......not planning to die a bachelor, coz I am normal. But just for the record, the first time i proposed, the girl said no and accepted my close friend's proposal a day later. Being shameful enough, i proposed to the same girl the next year, only to be declined again. This time too, she accepted some other guy's proposal a week later........pretty much shit i bore..........but I didnt try the third time, coz i'm not a whore....!
I've not mentioned the Gal's name for obvious reasons. I have no bad feelings with regards to her, and we do speak to each other once in a while.

Before you heard all this, im sure atleast one of you would have loved to step into my shoes to see the world, or atleast wanted to.....but now that you know what shit i've been through....please refrain from any such thoughts......Highly Contagious..........Could Fuck up a major part of your life called "Childhood" or "High School"......

Tc and adios........

1 comment:

Yulia D'Souza said...

relax bro....for the record i never found you scary....in fact some how u always reminded me of a nice cute huggable teddy:):):):)